Monday, April 6, 2009

Cross Roads

I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. Why did the economy have to suck right when we are trying to sell our house and move back home? Brandon and I have some tough decisions to make in the next two months - to buy a house or rent one, to sell our house or rent it out,. What if we can't get it to sell or rent out. What then?
What to do if Brandon tops out of his Apprenticeship and can't move to Snowflake. What if he gets stuck in taking a job in Douglas for example. Its back to the long distance relationship AGAIN. Having a husband and the kids having a dad on the weekends only. We have dealt with this for 4 YEARS and I wish it would go away, finally. It is truly is amazing Brandon and I have stayed as strong in our relationship as we have, with all the out of town working - we are talking months at a time of only seeing eachother Friday night thru Sunday Afternoon- and all of the obstacles we have hurdled. It feels like the more responsible we are, the harder we try to do the right thing, the crappier our outcomes. I am tired of putting our lives on hold because of the decisions that others make, mold our lives.
UH, it sucks getting older and having responsibilities sometimes.... All I know is I will be ready for a week of NO responsiblities other than what cocktail I want with my shrimp in Mexico come June. The next two months are going to be a challenge and HUGE DECISIONS for Brandon and I to make.
I guess hold on, and see what happens.